Once upon a time..
I was asked this question: If there was a guy that really loved you & wanted to have a relationship with you, what would you do? Would you ever love him more than the love before?
I replied with no intention of what I said: I don’t think I can ever love anyone more than I love my past love, people change & If this guy is willing & up to it he’ll wait for me until I’m ready, if he takes this risk then I think there might be something worth it..
I shouldn’t have replied ‘I don’t think’, I should have answered ‘I will never love anyone else’
But I was right I will never love anyone in my whole lifetime as much as I love him
I was also right when I said that people change
However, in my case, I’m sure I’ll change, God knows to the better or not, physically, mentally, emotionally …etc, but my love to him will also remain unchanged
For he is my one & only true love
& forever will I be faithful to him although somewhere in my heart says this would be your biggest mistake yet
I’m stubborn enough to know that I will do it for my love to him is far too great
As for the mistaken young, eager heart that fell in love with the wrong person in the wrong place & time, I feel sorry for him because he will have to look for another maiden to live with him in his own castle in the middle of nowhere land that lay within the thin walls of his fragile heart
I live in a time were you find your lover in the ends of the world but you are never meant to live together happily ever after
That’s the unfairness of life
It just rips away your most prised possession you could ever be in titled to in your whole life
How pathetic that is
To love someone you can never have
Then why bother to love then?
Why do through the twists & hurls of a love that is just perfect for each other but not meant to be?
To become attached to that person meaninglessly
Were you can’t move unless you know & comfort your heart & soul with the fact that this person lives & dies for you
Were you endure countless times of pain & agony; of hollow suffering
With this person that you shall never be with
That you can’t declare your love to for one circumstance or another
Whether it’s the society or the home you live in; its tabooed to declare your undefined love to the person that holds your heart in his/her hand after he/she ripped it out of your shivering body that has no existence without it but in some weird state is taking deep care of it, in his/her care its filled with love & affection like no other
Or the heartless fact that your lover suddenly has no affection or feelings towards you; only an hollow empty space which you used to occupy, in a desperate attempt to repay what is being done to me; to fill that person with the same love & affection given out to thou self
It’s all the same
All the same truth; you have lost the person that your heart belongs & longs to
The hardest truth in a person’s life in fact
You fall deeply in love with this person that pushes your buttons, kills you with their bad jokes, makes you want to kill them when they play this sick prank on you, when they scream or yell at you in fear or anger they force you to face the truth & be yourself; the person they loved in you, the person that they were drawn to from the very beginning, that makes you want to cry when they overwhelm you with their sweetness
You make plans with their consent & in your heart, the basis of which is the thought of you two together forever
A while passes by
Suddenly everything disappears & nothing is left but this bitter fact that now you are forever on your own
You have no light on your way
No undeclared sacred love affair that does nothing but ignites this fire within your soul that drives you through everything that passes by you; the good, the bad & the down right ugly
No ‘backbone’ to relay on
No one watching & guarding you; protecting you from all harm
Just an empty hole in a lonely heart alone in time & space
A hole that only seems to get bigger & bigger with time
Slowly filling up with nothingness, emptiness that does nothing to your soul only to bring it down to the ground; to reality
& now would you kindly tell me what is the purpose of loving someone when the only result is a broken heart?
Why should a person go looking for something that might destroy him/her?
Why should we bother ourselves into falling in love purposely & accidentally with the only person that might wipe out everything that you have ever strived for?
What is the purpose of love?
Why did I fall in love with you?
Tell me why..
I was asked this question: If there was a guy that really loved you & wanted to have a relationship with you, what would you do? Would you ever love him more than the love before?
I replied with no intention of what I said: I don’t think I can ever love anyone more than I love my past love, people change & If this guy is willing & up to it he’ll wait for me until I’m ready, if he takes this risk then I think there might be something worth it..
I shouldn’t have replied ‘I don’t think’, I should have answered ‘I will never love anyone else’
But I was right I will never love anyone in my whole lifetime as much as I love him
I was also right when I said that people change
However, in my case, I’m sure I’ll change, God knows to the better or not, physically, mentally, emotionally …etc, but my love to him will also remain unchanged
For he is my one & only true love
& forever will I be faithful to him although somewhere in my heart says this would be your biggest mistake yet
I’m stubborn enough to know that I will do it for my love to him is far too great
As for the mistaken young, eager heart that fell in love with the wrong person in the wrong place & time, I feel sorry for him because he will have to look for another maiden to live with him in his own castle in the middle of nowhere land that lay within the thin walls of his fragile heart
I live in a time were you find your lover in the ends of the world but you are never meant to live together happily ever after
That’s the unfairness of life
It just rips away your most prised possession you could ever be in titled to in your whole life
How pathetic that is
To love someone you can never have
Then why bother to love then?
Why do through the twists & hurls of a love that is just perfect for each other but not meant to be?
To become attached to that person meaninglessly
Were you can’t move unless you know & comfort your heart & soul with the fact that this person lives & dies for you
Were you endure countless times of pain & agony; of hollow suffering
With this person that you shall never be with
That you can’t declare your love to for one circumstance or another
Whether it’s the society or the home you live in; its tabooed to declare your undefined love to the person that holds your heart in his/her hand after he/she ripped it out of your shivering body that has no existence without it but in some weird state is taking deep care of it, in his/her care its filled with love & affection like no other
Or the heartless fact that your lover suddenly has no affection or feelings towards you; only an hollow empty space which you used to occupy, in a desperate attempt to repay what is being done to me; to fill that person with the same love & affection given out to thou self
It’s all the same
All the same truth; you have lost the person that your heart belongs & longs to
The hardest truth in a person’s life in fact
You fall deeply in love with this person that pushes your buttons, kills you with their bad jokes, makes you want to kill them when they play this sick prank on you, when they scream or yell at you in fear or anger they force you to face the truth & be yourself; the person they loved in you, the person that they were drawn to from the very beginning, that makes you want to cry when they overwhelm you with their sweetness
You make plans with their consent & in your heart, the basis of which is the thought of you two together forever
A while passes by
Suddenly everything disappears & nothing is left but this bitter fact that now you are forever on your own
You have no light on your way
No undeclared sacred love affair that does nothing but ignites this fire within your soul that drives you through everything that passes by you; the good, the bad & the down right ugly
No ‘backbone’ to relay on
No one watching & guarding you; protecting you from all harm
Just an empty hole in a lonely heart alone in time & space
A hole that only seems to get bigger & bigger with time
Slowly filling up with nothingness, emptiness that does nothing to your soul only to bring it down to the ground; to reality
& now would you kindly tell me what is the purpose of loving someone when the only result is a broken heart?
Why should a person go looking for something that might destroy him/her?
Why should we bother ourselves into falling in love purposely & accidentally with the only person that might wipe out everything that you have ever strived for?
What is the purpose of love?
Why did I fall in love with you?
Tell me why..
(Writen at : 3:27am / January 22nd 07)
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